Many of my friends know the fact that I breastfeed to 2 toddlers - 2 1/2 years and 8 months. A few of them told me to put a stop for Shahmey (2 1/2 years). I tried but I failed. I know I wasn't diligent enough in doing it. Of course, I could give several reasons for not being able to deter Shahmey from breastfeeding.
There were a few ways suggested but none seems to be appropriate as Summeyah is breastfeeding at the same time. A friend told me, after the age of 2 years, the milk become poisonous (gives harm) to my kid. Frankly, I don't know the truth of it. Is there any Quranic verse of even hadith about it? If there is, I'll be more persistent in stopping Shahmey then. I don't want to give something bad to my child.
Deep down in my heart, I have an intention to discontinue Shahmey but a heart of a mom says NO. Last night, Shahmey was breastfeeding and at the same time Sumeyyah was crying. I guess she required extra attention (kinda no sharing please!!!). I had to bring Shahmey to his own room. I could hear his loud crying "Nak Ummi!!!" for some moment. A guilty concious overwhelmed myself. As soon as Summeyyah fell asleep, I rushed to the kids' room. I opened the door and asked Shahmey to come with me. He was so excited when I held him and brought him to my room. He quietly told me, "Ami tak nak tidur bibik... Ami nak Ummi..". I cried deep inside.
I know I have to be strong but dealing with the situation that I went through last night didn't make me any stronger. I am a weak mom. Am I?